urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname and The Nightmare Stops... some_emoname 2006-01-17T18:04:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:4280 2006-01-17T18:04:10Z 2006-01-17T18:04:10Z gravity rides everything - modest mouse well everybody, i got suspended again, but its a long story i'll tell you all later, im sitting at home right now, nervous as all hell, im about to make the call that will basically be determining if i will get to come home for good in 2 weeks, 1 week for my suspension and another to finish off my finals and get my credits. im going to be calling grossmont in a couple minutes and ask if it is possible for me to enter in their middle college program which would allow me to finish high school and get my diploma, while taking college courses earning college credits, and i get help on finding an internship as well. this program looks reallly good, and i'll get to be at home, it sounds like alot of work, well hope for the best....<br />i really want to come home<br />until next time<br />ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:3907 2005-12-06T20:58:39Z 2005-12-06T20:58:39Z the computer lab well, its been a while, im still here, at boarding school in the ugly hot state of AZ, which would be cool to visit for maybe a weekend, but ive been here for ohhh, 4 months, yahhhh, ummm, i dont even know where to start, i miss home like no other, i miss my friends, my room, just being able to get up and walk to the refrigerator to get something to eat, its ridiculous here, im doing pretty good in all my classes, i have basically a second family here, which is the only thing that keeps me sane, it was about 15 degrees last night, and 18-20 when i woke up this morning, i miss the california weather, and being able to drive in my truck, i miss being able to just call people, without it having to be a close family member, but, i'll be home soon enough, and it will be on good terms this time, and i guess since i had incense this morning, i was smoking weed in the dorm...ssswweeetttt, i love boarding school...<br />until next time<br />ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:3789 2005-11-08T22:07:45Z 2005-11-08T22:07:45Z well, kids, help me out here, i need it<br />yah, ive done it again, i guess theres a good chance im gonna be coming home before christmas<br />on less than likeable terms, so<br />yah<br />help<br />until then<br />ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:3380 2005-04-21T15:05:21Z 2005-04-21T15:05:21Z my only accomplishment...<br />being a failure urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:3289 2005-04-14T14:53:40Z 2005-04-14T14:53:40Z at the drive in SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO<br />long time kids<br />well ive been grounded and getting owned by my parents<br />sooo<br />yah<br />im sick of drama<br />its retarded<br />especially when people cant say to the persons face<br />and im sick of fake people<br />and im sick of just getting used by people<br />and im just sick of school<br />and etc etc<br />i could whine and complain for a while<br />but screw it<br />one person i want to hang out<br />and really talk to...<br />but yay for ozzie being a chronic screw up<br />and getting annhilated by parents words<br />and effing up in life in general<br />but it will happen soon hopefully<br />well i hope i dont know about "you"<br />until next time<br />ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:2915 2005-02-28T16:17:22Z 2005-02-28T16:17:22Z keyboards ..."and she kissed me. It was the kind of kiss that I could never tell my friends about out loud. It was the kind of kiss that made me know that I was never so happy in my life."<br /><br />an amazing book that i dont care what anybody says about it, and that quote could never have been so true.<br /><br />its been 12 days since i held you in my arms...<br />12 days since i knew i was never so happy in my life...<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i miss the scent of hair dye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:2643 2005-02-25T23:36:22Z 2005-02-25T23:36:22Z bleeding through HAHAHAHAHA, IM HERE TO STAY BITCHES...<br />WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT<br />i got one more shot, and im going to use it<br />so whether you like it or not im here to stay<br />if you have no clue what im talking about<br />then you probably dont deserve to know<br />or i just didnt get around to telling you<br />well im here to stay for real kids<br /><br />until next time<br /><br />ozzie<br /><br /><br /><br />Im just learning how to smile.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:2473 2005-02-25T01:10:37Z 2005-02-25T01:10:37Z with hopes last breath im glad that when everything sorts out<br />my true friends arise<br />to all of you...you know my whole story, and i love you all<br />to everybody else whos fake and pretends, im glad that when it all sorts out that i find out who you are<br />the sun will shine again, i know it will<br />its just behind those clouds<br />i will make it<br />whether you want me to or not<br /><br />i just wish i had something true...<br />not fake....<br />i wish i could hold on to something good....<br />i will...<br />i swear....<br /><br />ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:2252 2005-02-21T06:55:38Z 2005-02-21T06:55:38Z throwdown if i had words to explain it i would.... but im lost for them right now.... maybe tomorrow i'll gather my thoughts up and jot them down.... but until then.... forget it urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:2003 2005-02-18T05:04:02Z 2005-02-18T05:04:02Z The Sailboats whats wrong with me? can somebody explain it to me? can somebody just give me the thing that im missing? somethings not registering with me? i dont quite understand....i know what I want, but theres something that other people see in me that i must not....i dont get it.....and theres no gray area on how they view it. its either this thing i fail to see is bad in their eyes, or its amazing in their eyes. but, theres something thats vague to me, that i guess is quite apparent to other people. its a mystery to me, and its not a fun one to figure it out, because everybodies seemed to solve it except the kid holding the puzzle box up. its like im the kid with the flashlight in the dark, but im wearing a blindfold, everybody looks at me and knows whats going on, but im still blind....well on a odder note i havent quite died yet, but i believe it will be soon, according to alot of people it takes 48 hours. and as of now i believe its been about 30'ish. and if your wondering why i keep saying im dying, its cuz im probably going to get sick but hopefully my amazing immune system will kick in hahaha. well its official in my head, ******'stoo good for me. but i will keep on going, the gut feeling presses me onward. onward into what you ask? who knows..the hope of tomorrow i guess, the hope of seeing the smile thats worth more than the world to me. the hope of being able to look into the most beautiful eyes again. well kids, if you can explain this thing thats not registering in my head i would love to hear it.<br />-ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:1613 2005-02-17T04:31:01Z 2005-02-17T04:31:01Z Hopes Fall I dont believe in miracles....but i believe in you<br /><br />soooo today was a half day, sick...hahaha. umm i got out early went to lunch with mi madre, then headed on home. i was hanging out for a little when i get a message from her, she stayed home sick awwww. hahaha, well i ask her if she wants me to come take care of her hahaha, she said yah, so i finish my homework grab my crap, head on over and hang out for a while. hahaha, she killed me, on purpose, and i knew it, and it was worth it hahaha. me dieing isnt a bad thing haha. well then headed on out to guitar, a half hour late but he was busy anyway so its all good. went home, called her, and her phone hates this town so it kept hanging up on me, and i called her back 2 times and then she told me just call her back later, she sounded pissed, so i asked her whats wrong, but nothing was according to her, im believing her, and i guess i am quite over-dramatic / over-reactor. but what can i say....i think its a good reason to get careful. haha<br />until next time kids<br />-ozzie<br /><br />Tables for one get old.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:1523 2005-02-15T04:09:33Z 2005-02-15T04:09:33Z He Is Legend im sick of hearing people tell me how much they hate valentines day, no offense, but all i heard today was people whining about how much they hate valentines day. really, if you hate it so much, please speak your mind to people who agree with you and its cool if you talk to me about it, but please hear my side of the story also. i guess i feel this way because i actually did something for somebody, and i dont have a reason to hate it, yet... well today was tiring, nervewrecking, and well worth it. i woke up freaking early and dropped off a flower and a letter to her, and then went to school, school was alright, i cant stand mrs. johnsons voice, all i hear come out of her mouth is, "hey guys.." in the highest voice humanly possible. then thats about all, miss klein didnt die after all, but shes pretty close, if the viral crap she has doesnt kill her, her lifes at a point where shes about to snap. no offense, its not i like i dont like her just stating a fact thats all. then after school was over i headed on over to therapy, talked about life, it was good, hes a cool guy, i enjoy the hour i spend with him just kind of venting and talking about everything from driving to guitar to problems in my life. after that headed on home, and grabbed a bouquet of flowers got changed, headed down to her work, and it was super packed and i saw her right when i walked in, but she was too busy to come see me, so i waited around 10 minutes until i gave the flowers to somebody else to give them to her. then i headed home, finished up homework while listening to HeIsLegend, great cd, and here i am now. exciting, nervewrecking, tiring, but it was all worth it to see her smile, and thats how i know that it was worth it....<br />until next time kids<br />-ozzie<br />P.S. to all out there who hate valentines day, i am sorry....please do not take this offensively, i just heard way too much hate out there for my taste, and happy valentines day to you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:1154 2005-02-13T06:47:13Z 2005-02-13T06:47:13Z Trigger My Nightmare im excited, but i dont know why, i have no reason to whatsoever be excited. its this gut feeling, and im sticking with it. who knows i bet you im wrong, considering that about 99.9% of the time i am anyways. mondays valentines day, i have too much work to do before then. i hope it works out, well kids, if you have an explanation for me on anything at all, please feel free to speak...<br />-ozzie urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:some_emoname:819 2005-02-09T16:23:51Z 2005-02-09T16:23:51Z life this past weekend was quite amazing. lifes turning up for me i think finally. yes i know i probably over react about alot of things that i shouldnt really care about. ive been told this by many a people. but lately ive been re-kindling old friendships and beginning new ones. well im finally content and happy and its been a while since ive been like that. i finally found out that theres no worrying about moving anymore and to all those who didnt know about that possibility its ok not many did. well kids im not sure what to write about but all i can say is that lifes shaping up and its awesome.<br />until next time<br />-ozzie